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It’s one of those days. I was in the middle of getting ready for my day and I just broke. Can’t stop cryin now. I thought I couldn’t miss you anymore than I did these last few weeks but now that I know ill never see you again, probably ever, I’m just heart broken an it’s real now. I don’t understand what I did to make you do what you did. I don’t believe that I deserve the kind of treatment you are giving me. If you just explained yourself then maybe I wouldn’t be hurting so much. Instead I get nothing. You start by not showing up to a very important event you said you would come too, I know now that you didn’t plan on coming at all. I missed the signs or I saw them but choose to ignore them… All week… How much longer was I blind? I thought we were perfect for each other. I’ve never met anyone I connected with more.
I was falling. I was falling really hard. Maybe that’s why it hurts so much.
I don’t understand what I could have done wrong…. am I too nice? Too giving? Did I get to an annoying level of that? Did I text too much? I really put my heart into this one and he doesn’t even have the decency to respond. Today was a huge day for me. I know we haven’t know each other very long but i thought we agreed that this felt so right? I am so full of love. I want to love somebody. I spent 5 years trying to find myself and to figure out who i am and how to love myself for who i am. I did that. Now I’m finally ready to love somebody and give everything in my heart to them and i really thought you were that person, until today.
You have told me some of your darkest secrets.
Secrets that you keep oh, so buried deep.
You weren’t sure I could handle it. But weren’t you surprised?
In return, this has made me trust you with mine.
Yet I barely know the everyday you.
The everyday secrets that make you, you.
I know things i will never tell
I want to know the rest.
And to be given the chance.
I want to know the everyday you.
And I meant what i said that first day.
Come out from your shadow.
Because I want to know you.
I think you need this.
I want you to know me.
I want to know you.
I’m okay with everyday, are you?
- Heather M. Devery